Stir Crazy

Seriously.....this is hard.

I'm 40 weeks and 5 days pregnant with no end in sight. Okay, that's not true. I know my doctors won't let me go past 42 weeks. June 9....It's May 31.

I can't sleep and I'm certainly not hungry. When my stomach growls, I cringe at the idea of cramming one more thing in my body. I don't want to eat because there's no room plus I know eventually it's going to make me feel like I have to go to the bathroom. Every time I have to go to the bathroom I wonder if the pressure is the beginning of labor.

It's so cruel.

I've never paid so much attention to every little twinge my body makes or feels.

I suppose it wouldn't be so bad if my fear of induction weren't so great, if my body was showing some signs of progress, if my doctor's appointments weren't still scheduled a week apart and if I were still working and not just sitting around.

Waiting

Waiting

Waiting

So as I'm typing waiting, I hear this playing in the background;

I'm waiting

I'm waiting on You, Lord

And I am hopeful

I'm waiting on You, Lord

Though it is painful

But patiently, I will wait

I will move ahead, bold and confident

Taking every step in obedience

While I'm waiting

I will serve You

While I'm waiting

I will worship

While I'm waiting

I will not faint

I'll be running the race

Even while I wait

I'm waiting

I'm waiting on You, Lord

And I am peaceful

I'm waiting on You, Lord

Though it's not easy

But faithfully, I will wait

Yes, I will wait

I will serve You while I'm waiting

I will worship while I'm waiting

I will serve You while I'm waiting

I will worship while I'm waiting

I will serve you while I'm waiting

I will worship while I'm waiting on You, Lord

-John Waller

God works. I guess I just need to continue to have faith that my body will do what it needs to do.

Until then I will pray and wait....and try not to fear and dread.